In my last post I described the pleasure of sitting in painting class daydreaming.
When I wrote that post I had been in painting class for about 6-8 sessions, actually I can't remember exactly how many sessions, but I know I didn't accomplish much, unless you count mixing paints, dabbling a bit and daydreaming as something.
In the end all the mixing paints, dabbling and daydreaming added up to a new idea that hit me like a thunderbolt. Result: I've abandoned all work ethic and fiddled with my new idea for days now.
The problem is, work is breathing down hard on me in the form of unfinished kits, incomplete Mail Jail and of course endless streams of unanswered email. Now I'm back to an age-old scheme: I have to work so many hours to earn playtime.
But I cheat. I've succeeded in putting off work for 4 days now, all in the interest of yet more play.
Oh self discipline where are you when I need to access you?
Picture me looking around and not seeing self-discipline anywhere nearby.
Will my idea work?
Too early to tell yet, but it is terrifically captivating.
What if it doesn't work?
I'll have had days of creative frenzy and the amusement a good creative frenzy brings. That can't be all bad, can it? Excitement makes the endorphins flow, and aren't endorphins a sign of good health?
See how one can justify just about any escape from what one should be doing?
What if my idea does work?
Well, more excitement, more creative frenzy, more work avoidance.
It's all such a vicious circle isn't it.
But an entertaining one. Entertaining indeed.
And a nice thought that all my daydreaming and tinkering in painting class added up to a very big idea after all.